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YEEEY! Vi fick veta vad vi skulle göra för slutproduktion idag!!
THE WALL AV PINK FLOYD!!!!
Det är sååå stort! Den är så perfekt! Jag är en av de lyckligaste i världen! Jag skrek och grät nästan när dom började spela "Another brick in the wall" som sista ledtråd! Det kommer bli så superbra!
så.. så.. GAAAG! och så kommer vi (kanske, förmodligen) spela Trainspoting under eken i stockholm!! GAH! Det är så stort! och och.. det är fantastiskt! Jag kan inte riktigt fatta det! allt är så jävla underbart idag!


Tack världen! Tack för att jag finns och får leva det liv jag gör!
Jag älskar er! alla.. .fy fan vad jag är lycklig!

Okey, I am going to just... complain over my last two weeks, including this week.
I have a amoniac (det är lunginflamation va?). Or almost anyway, I have had a low fever and an inflameted airpipe for the last two weeks. Last week was probobly the hotest week this summer and I have a fever!
Then I got to the doctor and he gives me pencilin, then we found out that I'm allergic to pencilin. I got red itchy spots all over my arms, stomach, back and legs. It faded rather quickly but anyway.
Now I have got a medication I'm not allergic to and the fever is going down but still!
I hade so much planed for this week! And my mum wants me to clean the house ( yeah right, I cleand my room and then I was totaly exhousted!)
And this sunday I'm going down to gothenburg for a week with my wonderful friends there... I don't have the time of geting sick, the week after that I shall hike!
I hope I get well quick... Otherwise I will find myself sitting in an apparment in gothenburg next week.. with a grounding.
My dad said that if I'm still sick when we come down I'm not aloud to go out before I'm well again... that sucks... But I'm 18 so... I can make the choise to not obey and get yelled at. Thats the plan if I'm still sick next week.
But I won't. I won't..

Okej everyone, tomorrow by 5-6 a.m Me and my family is leaving for London.
I feel so excited! I will be in London sunday to suterday and the only bad thing is that I can't be here on internet (not so often as I use to anyway).
I will miss you people, I will. But hey, London is the culture capital of the world! (In my opinion) so I will not complain!
I'm totaly in love with that city, with the hole country!
Gosh I'm happy to day!

Hrhrhm dear readers.
I'm have done.. a thing... down there. Read it and you will know a little bit more about me. But when I write I use "freaking" as an substitute when I want to write Fuck. Just to seem a littel more.. civilized..


What curse word do you use the most?
The F-word.. *looks down* Fuck.. I like it, even though it is a nasty word. Jävla skit is good to.

Do you own an iPod?
No I don't. I have a X-drum.

What time is your alarm clock set for?
Depends on when I shall get up :P

How many suitcases do you own?
That is my one? One... maybe..

Do you wear flip-flops even when it's cold outside?
I did one time this winter, that was freaking freezing! I was just order outside to get something and the flip-flops took the shortest time to get on.

Where do you buy your groceries from?
Mostley ICA and Prix.

Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
I rather be in the picture. I just love to be in the spotlight. But I mostly don't look any good.

What was the last movie you watched?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... King Arthur I think... for one or two weeks ago.

Do any of your friends have children?
Nope. Most of my friends have the same luck with guys as I do.

If you won the lottery, what's the first thing you would buy?
Buy myself a laptop! And trevel, visits friends in Uppsala and Göteborg.

Has anyone ever called you lazy?
Í am lazy, every one that has had a gymlesson with me knows that. So yes.

Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster?
No, not that I know of... Or.. dose narcos for operation count?

What CD is currently in your CD player?
Nightwish bless the Child and an meditation cd with rainforest noise.

Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
Regular! but chocolate is nice to. But I'm a milkfreak.

Has anyone told you a secret this week?
Hehe, no.. Not that I know of anyway.

When was the last time someone hit on you?
I don't know.. a friend of a friend of mine maybe did it last sunday. But I'm not shure. Hope not.. He is so annoying!

Do you wear hoodies often?
Yes I do, I like them, they are warm.

Can you whistle?
Yes I can!

Have you ever participated in a protest?
Yes, an anti-rasist protest with school (Is an activ member of Amnesty and UMR (yought against rasism)

Who was the last person to call you?
My dad or Sjaz I think.. Or Eli..

Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
Moste sertenly yes. Would be suprised otherwise.

Did you watch cartoons as a child?
Still do!

How big is your local mall?
Small.. or not very small but not big.

How many siblings do you have?
Four, three sisters and one brother.

Are you shy around the opposite sex?
Well, yes I guess...

What is your biggest regret?
Don't know..

When was the last time you laughed so hard your sides hurt?
Last weekend I think.

What movie do you know every line to?
Some disney, lord of the rings maybee.. I'm not so good at movies.

Do you own any band t-shirts?
No, but I will most certently buy some.

When was your last plane ride?
Two summers ago, I went to Spain with my mom.

Do you do your own dishes?
Dishwasher we have, in deed.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
Well a tatoo would be nice, piercings to. But I'm afraid of needels.

Do you believe that the guy should pay on the first date?
Well... ehmm... For his own stuff? yes! For mine, if i wants to thats nice :P

Can you skip rocks?
Skip rocks? Whats that?

Have you ever been to Jamaica?
Nope, have no need of going there either.

What to snack on at the movie theaters?
Candy maybe.. and something to drink.

Who was your favorite teacher?
My dramateacher! She is crasy!And so freaking damn good! I love her!

Have you ever dated someone out of your race?
Have never dated so no. And for second, I don't think there is any races exept the humanrace and I most certently woudln't date a dog or a horse!

What is the weather like?
Sunny, warm.

Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos?
Shure, why not? Is he/she nice thats fine with me.

What was your favorite class in high school?
Swedish, history and "SO".

Do you enjoy traveling via airplanes?
Oh yes! But I don't like the starting and landing if I don't have a chewing gum (my ears are fucked up)

What personality trait is a must-have in your preferred gender?
Nice, good humor, not to... "Ohh my god! a fly! Save me!"

Have you ever been attracted to someone physically unattractive?
That would hit me or something? No way! That just.. depressed? Yes.

When was the last time you slept on the floor?
between sunday and monday this week, was at the teather with some other young people.

What is your favorite alcoholic drink?
Bailey!

Does your closest Starbucks have a drive-thru?
Well, lets se... Is there a starbucks in Helsinki may be? That would be the nearest. I live in Sweden we don't have any!

Do you like your living arrangement?
It will do, but I would like to live closer to my friends.

How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
Ohh... minimum is 4 hours.

What was the last thing to scare you?
My sister probobly, or Totte.. the soft punk I know.

What is your favorite fruit?
Aprikos it is in swedish, whats the name in english?

Do you pay attention to calories on the back of packages?
Noo, would just get upset.

Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
Yes I am, and I comment sometimes. If its swedish gramar, English.. well I'm not to good at that so..

Do you believe in life on other planets?
yes I do!

Who was the last person to piss you off?
humm... don't now...

Do you beliv god has a gender?

Well.. No.. but I don't now if I even belive in God..

What was the last thing you ate?
Fresh pasta and meatsauce.

Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex?
No one? Well I don't know..

What did you dress up as for your first Halloween?
Yes yes yes! I love it! Hehe! The only time you can dress up scary and go out with out people noticing!

Do you like mustard?
ehmm... no.

What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
Keep on moving keep on moving, you will survive (I am a bit melodramatic)

Do you sleep on your side, tummy, or back?
I don't know... at my side I think..

What character from a movie most reminds you of yourself?
Ehm... Don't know.. But I have alot in common with my characters at ag! They are like.. extrem-me!

Have you ever bid for something on ebay?
No.

What do you think of Angelina Jolie being pregnant?
Don't cear.. Nice for her.

Do you enjoy giving hugs?
Yes I do. If I like the person.

Would you consider yourself to be fashionable?
Well.. No, not really. I go more for that Hard rock/punky look.

Do you own a digital camera?
My family dose, bought it yesterday.

If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?
Strange... and sad for that person.

What celebrities have you been compared to?
Ehh.. The ring girl?

Who is your favorite Star Wars character?
Yoda!

Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but never do?
Well of curse..

Do you think you're attractive?
Sometimes.. Well, when I'm in a good mode I think so.

What are you allergic to?
Nothing realy, get some reactions to smoke but...

Are you a jealous person?
I don't know, not that jealous at least..

What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment?
If they like it shure, don't come to me though!

Do you ever feel guilty after eating meat?
No, they are allready dead so it's better that I eat them then that they just get rotten.

If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name have been?
Sebastian. And if my parents didn't name me that I would trade.

Hope you enjoyed the reading :P

Oh god! I swear I will melt soon! It's so freaking hot here! People that know me knows how much I complained about the frezing temprature this winter but pleas nature! Don't over do the heat ether! I can't go outside with out geting a headace(that don't concern me to much because I'm lazy but anyway).
It's so hot!
I will get a tan soon, and I don't want to... I like having the same skintoon as a ghost.. *whimper like a child*
But at least I have summerbreak now, thats so nice... I went up to the road to day an waited for the Icecream-car. It felt so... summerish!
I like the summer I do, it's just a little bit hot right now.

It's a little bit creapy, I'm getting social. I have never been that before, but this weekend I first was on a classparty with some classmates and then I and some of the younger people in my theater group had a sleepover at the theater this nigth between sunday and monday. I amazed by myself, what has happend?
Or.. well.. if you can call that social. I'm not really talking alot with them or getting all exited by spending time with them but it is nice.. I almost feel accepted :)
Anyway, I have had a pretty nice weekend, even though I wish I had a little bit more time by myself here at home.
But you can't have everything right?

I am a little bitt worried today.. My parents have been fighting for the last two days, over a motorbike my dad wants to buy..Or.. not only that but that was what started it. It can't be good when they fight for that long can it? I feel a bit worried that my mom will leave my dad, she has left two man she married befor him so... I don't know...
It do not get better becuse I feel like a total ashole for hurting one of my best friends feelings beeing really really bitchy and mean.. I can be that when I don't feel to good and I think I truly needs to work with that.. I'm not to used to having friends so the hole beeing friendly and sweet to others is pretty new to me. But I'm trying I promise.. I really am, I'm just not so good at it so far.
I thought this things were over, I haven't feelt this bad sense I gradueted from high school (wich my littel sis did today, yey for her).
That was a pretty nasty time for me (a school full of jerks and then my "friends" abonded me becuse I had a crush of one of them, my best friend actually... But thats an old story). I read myself through that time of my life, and was nasty to people that irretated me. I don't want to go down that road again I truley don't.
well well, I guess it will turn better... It usely do that.

You see, tomorrow is the day of my dads birthday. We are going to go to a restaurant called Albertina, and he is going to get a shirt and I think mom bought something more.
I think it will go on fine, like it always do, but I'm a little worried about the cake. We haven't bougth anyone you see, so we have to do one tomorrow or buy one then. Normally he gets the cake in the morning so I guess we will have to bake one huh?
I'm not a big fan of making cakes, not birthday cakes anyway. The last one I did had a big hole in the middle. A Carrot cake, that hadn't been in the owen long enough. I hope it will go well, because my dad deserves a nice birthday. He has been sick and a bit depressed the last five years I think so it is nice to please him.
I love to make people I like happy.
Anyway... it will be a nice day I hope.

I hate being sick! It's awful! The only small good thing is that my parents spoils me when I turn really ill like I am now.
That's nice, I like getting spoiled.
But I don't like to get exhousted just by going down the stairs, or to go shopping food with my mom. I have theaterlesson tomorrow, and I will miss it because of this freaking flue!
Isn't it nice, one week left of school befor summers break and I get the flue! It's just so typical!

Anyway, I can cheer myself up with one thing. I'm going to London! I will be leaving Sweden 18'th of june and come back 25'th of june! that's like heaven! I will spend my birthday in London! That's so cool!

I'm still trying to understand this okay? so please don't judge me...
This is freaking hard, I truly suck in english to...
Well, I'm sure I will enoy this thing. I hope I won't bug to many people.
Hi to my friends by the way!
Hello.